lost......& lost.................

ooops lost again...
this time get lost in career....
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
just done appraisal session with team manager today.....
discuss short term & long term goal....
company defined short term is 3 years...@.@
my short term is 1 year lehhhh.................
really need think about my career clearly..............
my goal......................................................
my direction..................................................................................
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

lost........................................

I think I'm lost again....
this time lost in love.....
Does he is my Mr. right????
i didn't feel the love way that i wish to get.........
is my problem?????????
how can i solve my problem???????????????
uncertainty........................
so scary...................................

busy really is not a good excuse......
although i know he really busy like hell..............
if i also busy........u also busy...............
then the relationship nobody will maintain it........
no meaning for the relationship although still love each other...........
the love will fade...........
at last.........
bye bye...............

welcome back~

I miss this guy.....currently we are 8,148.6 miles or 13,113.9km apart......Portland, Oregon, United States.....never heard this place before.....but once he told me about he will go there attend training class....total travel time around 10 days....wth....1st thing came from my mind was I WANT JOIN!!!!i don't care can't enjoy CNY...i don't care family rejection....i don't care...i just want to join!!!!!!if not i will regret....
sadly....once talked about the flight ticket...omg...i don't have enough moeny @.@....and need to apply Visa...@.@....OMG.....I UNABLE to join.....sad....sad....sad......miss a chance to US....& i think probably won't have chance to go US....at least take 24 hours flight.....insane & suffer flight moment.....last time I feel damn suffer when I just took roughly 12 hours flight to UK.....gosh....24 hours at plane....watch movie, eat, slp, eat, slp, toilet, slp, eat.....lifeless at plane~
anyway....honestly....i felt damn damn damn envy.....most of the expenses paid by company....envy daooooooooooooooooooooooooo.......make me hate him~i kept punch him hahahahahahaha~he so innoncent....felt so sorry to him~but no choice....i must punch him~~at last I still accept it & adapt the day without him~walao ehhhhh~Portland is 16 hours behind!!!!!Today is Saturday in M'sia but he still Friday in Portland...the funny thing is, the time zone differences was totally same with when I was in UK and he in M'sia....
eg: When I was in UK ---- UK time 3pm ---- M'sia time 11pm
     When I was in M'sia ---- M'sia time 3pm ---- Portland time 11pm

No wonder the feeling sooooooooooooo familiar~but then just the day we passed will be different.....but really hate that feeling la~hate long distance relationship.....damn hard to maintain.....the frequency of argument confirm will increase......
This year CNY without him at Ipoh.....no supper & no breakfast with him~can't visit his parent too~one word to describe----sienzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........sienz & hot at grandma's house whole day......the most beh tahan was traffic jam at highway!!!took 5 hours to reach Ipoh...OMG....
by the way...this guy will back on Sunday~~it will be my very first time to drive alone to KLIA~just wish to get my sourvenir & see his tired look & smelly clothes =P
welcome back babe~~