bye & RIP.....

omg...shocked...stunned...sad....tear dropped....speechless....unbelievable....
bf's ex-housemate passed away today....
although i didn't know him...didn't meet him....
but i feel like i knew him as my bf talked about him sometimes....
their uni life...their happy & crazy time...their swimming moment...their yum cha session.....
all became past memory.....
at first I though he met an accident....
who knows....the news posted he was suicided due to stress from working.....
can't accept it....unbelievable....
hope someone can announce this was not the real reason....
can't believe stress will take away his life.....
how cruel he able left his gf & family & friend alone.....
his gf & family confirm sad die....
they need take damn long time to recover their life without u....
their future moment will without u....
my babe went to penang to say last goodbye to his bro....
no update from him....& don't dare to disturb him.....
i hope to know more about it...so i keep finding those related news....
however seem like just Kwong Wah & Guang Ming & China Press newspaper posted this news....
he chose to suicide sure there is a reason....
may be he unable to find a good listener.....
his problem or stress keep rolling....
until he chose a dead way to solve his problem.....
Honestly....I can know the feeling why will choose to suicide.....
when I was 17 years old, faced SPM....study & memorize damn many things....lacked of sleep....stress....worry.....don't want to face it....got 1 moment i think wana suicide....I can understand why ppl want to suicide....strong feeling want to escape....but luckily I scared die....I scared became famous.....so I still live until today.....yeap I'm stupid & childish on that time....but no worry~i mature nowadays....i am stronger~i feel like don't scare about the problem....face it positively....& don't care too much~life is short for me to explore all the world~just enjoy every moment~world is very big & attractive~1 of the reason i wana work hard & save my life is to explore all the beatiful places & natural view~
Seriously, i haven't found a good listener....or may be I'm not a good speaker to speak out all my feeling & problem....the only good way to express my feeling is write blog...& listen to music & heal it by myself....but I can be a good listener to my family & friends~especially my lover, I will always listen to u all & comfort u all~please cherish your life.....gambateh~