To myself,

Please be independent, be a good girl, be a strong girl. You are the only one who know yourself well, no one have the obligation to care you. Treat yourself good, love yourself more. Please enjoy your alone time, listen to yourself, follow your heart.

It's time to be a big girl now and big girls don't cry..........

The path that I'm walking, I must go alone..........

Fairy tale don't have a happy ending.........

Big Girls Don't Cry....

Fairy Tail the movie

Fairy Tail the movie --- Phoenix Priestess

unexpected & touching ending.........why this movie so short~wish to continue watch it~so miss those characters and storyline~& this movie made my day~love it~~~

Truth is cruel.....
regret to find out the truth.......
why....why.....why......
a lot of question in my mind........
hurt....disappointed...........
i hate myself to know the truth..........
sometime......
be simple is good......
no need to know too much............

wake up jennifer~~~
no princess in this real world.....
be tough...be strong....be independent......
be yourself......be happy.........
please treat yourself good......
u can make yourself happy even u are alone~
don't make your eyes tired.......
smile always~
cheers~~~

"The one who makes you laugh, and his/ her laugher is because of you, then he/ she is the right person"

"When you found your right person, the love can last for thousand year"

Swipe Tap Love

lost......& lost.................

ooops lost again...
this time get lost in career....
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
just done appraisal session with team manager today.....
discuss short term & long term goal....
company defined short term is 3 years...@.@
my short term is 1 year lehhhh.................
really need think about my career clearly..............
my goal......................................................
my direction..................................................................................
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

lost........................................

I think I'm lost again....
this time lost in love.....
Does he is my Mr. right????
i didn't feel the love way that i wish to get.........
is my problem?????????
how can i solve my problem???????????????
uncertainty........................
so scary...................................

busy really is not a good excuse......
although i know he really busy like hell..............
if i also busy........u also busy...............
then the relationship nobody will maintain it........
no meaning for the relationship although still love each other...........
the love will fade...........
at last.........
bye bye...............

welcome back~

I miss this guy.....currently we are 8,148.6 miles or 13,113.9km apart......Portland, Oregon, United States.....never heard this place before.....but once he told me about he will go there attend training class....total travel time around 10 days....wth....1st thing came from my mind was I WANT JOIN!!!!i don't care can't enjoy CNY...i don't care family rejection....i don't care...i just want to join!!!!!!if not i will regret....
sadly....once talked about the flight ticket...omg...i don't have enough moeny @.@....and need to apply Visa...@.@....OMG.....I UNABLE to join.....sad....sad....sad......miss a chance to US....& i think probably won't have chance to go US....at least take 24 hours flight.....insane & suffer flight moment.....last time I feel damn suffer when I just took roughly 12 hours flight to UK.....gosh....24 hours at plane....watch movie, eat, slp, eat, slp, toilet, slp, eat.....lifeless at plane~
anyway....honestly....i felt damn damn damn envy.....most of the expenses paid by company....envy daooooooooooooooooooooooooo.......make me hate him~i kept punch him hahahahahahaha~he so innoncent....felt so sorry to him~but no choice....i must punch him~~at last I still accept it & adapt the day without him~walao ehhhhh~Portland is 16 hours behind!!!!!Today is Saturday in M'sia but he still Friday in Portland...the funny thing is, the time zone differences was totally same with when I was in UK and he in M'sia....
eg: When I was in UK ---- UK time 3pm ---- M'sia time 11pm
     When I was in M'sia ---- M'sia time 3pm ---- Portland time 11pm

No wonder the feeling sooooooooooooo familiar~but then just the day we passed will be different.....but really hate that feeling la~hate long distance relationship.....damn hard to maintain.....the frequency of argument confirm will increase......
This year CNY without him at Ipoh.....no supper & no breakfast with him~can't visit his parent too~one word to describe----sienzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........sienz & hot at grandma's house whole day......the most beh tahan was traffic jam at highway!!!took 5 hours to reach Ipoh...OMG....
by the way...this guy will back on Sunday~~it will be my very first time to drive alone to KLIA~just wish to get my sourvenir & see his tired look & smelly clothes =P
welcome back babe~~

meaningful activity

a meaningful activity held by Shell colleague--visited orphans at Ti-Ratana Welfare Society on 11.01.2014~
so sad my dearest friend and lover can't join...so it's my 1st time to drive alone to a new place with my iphone google map!!!!subscribe 100mb per day data plan & started my journey!!!!OMG~luckily i able reached safely and didn't get lost!!!!luckily i just miss out a junction in that area....didn't make big mistake~phew~~i still not that familiar by using google map while driving...quite dangerous haha...heartbeat keep increasing while driving~

We susccessfully collected around $2k donation, they bought all their needs list~Children around 3-6 years full of energetic!!!!!!make noise all the way~out of control~hyper active~we need use higher tone to communicate with them...firstly they ignore us....didn't talk with us and no respond when we talked with them....when give them chocolate & sweets, they started friendly with us as they need our helped in opening those chocolate/ candy wrappers hahahahahahahahahaha~some of them quite naughty~aunty keep shouting hahaha~play with children very tired~~but very happy when they were smilling~~~around 20++ children~boys & girls also with short hair ~some time hard to differentiate their gender haha~had a great time with them~but really tired hahahaha~if got chance to visit them I sure will join~

*curious about the background of each children....why they will become orphan....can't believe quite a lot orphans.....some kids just 3 years old.....hope they live happily & stay healthy & strong~we are damn luckily because have a complete family....

lesson

Lesson of the day:

Always think clearly & logically & deeply & analyze it before u final ur work....Don't simply do what ppl call u to do....& don't too trust/ rely on others.....question it or challenge back if u feel something wrong.....even though senior assist u on work, but at last the signature is under ur name, u r the one who send out the work, check clearly before send out!!!when there is a mistake, u r the 1 they will look for or blame 1st although senior did/ assist the work for u.......must THINK further....

started can feel the political issue in office....boss received "message" from others that our team's girl wearing too sexy, the skirt too short....@.@ so girl can't wear short skirt anymore....our team's guy can't wear T-shirt to work although on Friday.....even though eat breakfast during working hour, also kena complain @.@

reminder to myself: don't let working stuff make my day worse, life is short~should enjoy it with sweet memory~if thing come to the worst, just leave the job, choose to be a backpacker, travel the world, go there wash dishes/ throw rubbish/ do packaging/ do whatever also can....as long as enjoy the life~

hobbit hobbit~~

hobbit hobbit~~i want to join your unexpected journey & meet the Smaug~
I love the story~I love the background orchestral music~I love the beutiful scene~I imagine I'm one of the character of the movie~that's why I didn't aware the movie was ended~
Hobbit~See you next year again~I'm waiting for you~wana collect your movie & soundtrack haha~

*Can't believe the Smaug has a lot of dialogue~I thought it just will flame hahahaha~
**Favorite songs from Hobbit: Misty Mountains & I see fire

11.12.13

weeee another special date~must record it at here~
11.12.13~~
happy birthday to Selangor's Sultan~public holiday in Selangor~
but SAD!!!!not applicable to me @.@ normal working day in Hong Kong...
yeaahooooo~my holiday & big day & xmas coming soon too~~~~happy happy~~

I'm lucky

I'm damn lucky able to work in Shell, MNC company that focus in "work life balance"...
my boss & big boss & big big boss all very concern their staff work life balance~
they always ask whether our work load heavy or not~need help or not~what problem faced~
they all willing to help~willing to teach~willing to listen with us~very nice~
they always encourage staff back home on time~not encourage to OT~
if OT, boss encourage us to claim OT, he will approve haha~
I'm very lucky can work in this team~
good senior, good colleague~
happy & appreciate it~
finally know all the detail story from babe....
almost can fully understand his feeling....
he really really very cham...feel sad....damn sad.....
saw many stupid people bad comment at fb....
i hope they can stop their stupid word!!!!
think before comment!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
idiot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bye & RIP.....

omg...shocked...stunned...sad....tear dropped....speechless....unbelievable....
bf's ex-housemate passed away today....
although i didn't know him...didn't meet him....
but i feel like i knew him as my bf talked about him sometimes....
their uni life...their happy & crazy time...their swimming moment...their yum cha session.....
all became past memory.....
at first I though he met an accident....
who knows....the news posted he was suicided due to stress from working.....
can't accept it....unbelievable....
hope someone can announce this was not the real reason....
can't believe stress will take away his life.....
how cruel he able left his gf & family & friend alone.....
his gf & family confirm sad die....
they need take damn long time to recover their life without u....
their future moment will without u....
my babe went to penang to say last goodbye to his bro....
no update from him....& don't dare to disturb him.....
i hope to know more about it...so i keep finding those related news....
however seem like just Kwong Wah & Guang Ming & China Press newspaper posted this news....
he chose to suicide sure there is a reason....
may be he unable to find a good listener.....
his problem or stress keep rolling....
until he chose a dead way to solve his problem.....
Honestly....I can know the feeling why will choose to suicide.....
when I was 17 years old, faced SPM....study & memorize damn many things....lacked of sleep....stress....worry.....don't want to face it....got 1 moment i think wana suicide....I can understand why ppl want to suicide....strong feeling want to escape....but luckily I scared die....I scared became famous.....so I still live until today.....yeap I'm stupid & childish on that time....but no worry~i mature nowadays....i am stronger~i feel like don't scare about the problem....face it positively....& don't care too much~life is short for me to explore all the world~just enjoy every moment~world is very big & attractive~1 of the reason i wana work hard & save my life is to explore all the beatiful places & natural view~
Seriously, i haven't found a good listener....or may be I'm not a good speaker to speak out all my feeling & problem....the only good way to express my feeling is write blog...& listen to music & heal it by myself....but I can be a good listener to my family & friends~especially my lover, I will always listen to u all & comfort u all~please cherish your life.....gambateh~

Oooops...sometime I will get lost again & again....hahaha~
work life is sienzzzzzzz......
I know the job that I'm doing now not the job scope that I wish to do......
thats why lost the "fire"......
no "fire"...no heart.....no motivation.....
damn it..........
i try to keep the fire as much as I can......
I must continue work hard!!!!!!!
to get promote & move to the job title that I wish!!!!!!!!!
come on!!!!!!!!!!!
few more month to go only!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
learn as much as I can!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
move on to get what I wish to get!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
scream inside my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
remind myself again.....
work hard to play hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BALANCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RIP..............................................................

 

23/10/2013 --- the last survivor among the 8 hamsters had passed away.....the cutest and the longest life among the 8....finally went to heaven met his family.....goodbye....rest in peace.....

1 daddy, 1 mommy, 6 children (3 girl girl, 3 boy boy).....thanks for living in my house....and sorry that I didn't take good care of all of you......wish u all have a better life in next newborn....i will miss you all....

we really need cherish every moment and every day....
we can't predict what will happen for next second....
accident happen without any sign....
you may lost ur life or diable after an accident....
ur life will totally change afterward....
sickness will take ur life too....
please take good care of your body....
there are too many thing that we haven't do in our life...
just do whatever you wish to do....
don't regret when you realize it is too late....
Again....
Life is too short for us to keep thinking those unneccessary stupid unhappy moment....
i wish i can complete all my to-do-list with my love one & best friend~
Feel so great when I'm in weak or in trouble....
my mom & my love one will always take care me...
I'm so glad to have you in my life...
i miss you....

"I can be tough....
I can be strong....
But with you....
It's not like that at all....
Damn damn damn....
What I'd do to have you here...
I wish you were here...."

Rush??

What do you think about this movie when u see this poster from GSC/ TGV website?? a man with gold hair....rush?????rush what oooooo....no attractive at all...but when my babe said he wish to watch this movie because he love the sport.....OMG!!!is related to F1~~ah ceh~~

2nd poster.....

aiyoooo~they should promote with this poster~so attractive~~F1~~very clear~~


Based on true story....Niki Lauda & James Hunt~Niki still alive, James died when he was 45 years old....The climax is when Niki involve in a crash during a racing in 1976....inhaling hot toxic gases and suffering severe burns....close to death....at last....he still strong enough to continue the race.....pui fuk...pui fuk.....we must learn from him....never give up....

I can't believe I interested in searching the background of this 2 real main characters....I get shocked when I saw their real picture....OMG~look alike with the actors~dressing, accent, expression...respect!!!!very professional!!!!the most attractive is the F1 cars!!!!!Ferrari~leng~~


*In the movie, I prefer Niki Lauda because of his cute english accent~hahahahaha~

The Stolen Years....

1st Oct is public holiday in HK....I spend my time in this movie that recommended by my colleague.....a love story.....i should say...is a sad love story.....i cry....& i believe those who watch it will cry too......

what i can say is cherish every moment together.....then our memory will full of happiness & sweetness~always store in our heart & mind~record every single happy & sweet moment by taking picture or write in word.....IF we lost our memory one day.....those pictures & words will always be our memory~never lost~

bababababanana~

The hottest toy~~!!!! MINIONS !!!!~~~
The hottest song~~~!!!! BABABABANANA !!!!~~~~
~~~~~!!!! POTATO ooooo !!!~~~~~~
finally & luckily i bought minions from MCD~~~~
It's out of stock!!!!!!minons fever~~~
honestly, 1st time bought toy from mcd although I live for 22 years ++.....
1st time act crazy wana collect all minions from mcd.....
minions damn cute~~~~
although totally hv no idea what are they talking about~
but they are so damn funny~~~
no matter watch how many times for their video, i still will Laugh Out Loud~
the best cure when in bad mood~~

I love yellow color~

I love eat banana~~

& I love minons~~~